I saw student activism todaytoday was also
good to see change energy motivation I learned about pragmatism
and propheticism (thanks always to yonnie
screw your roommate
wander around the dining hallpersue absurd coordination find your partner, your "screw date"
marco your polo
indiana jones rescues a cellophaned food flung grl
some chem major dressed as an alcohol moleculefinds an anti-alcohol enzyme I would have acted out
but my girlfriended roommate Ben
we didn't set me up with a screwbusy lamenting my statethen tonight we pack the gym
until I got over myself
free to sleep, work roam slowunattached today someday I'll be properly screwed. sweaty college beforehand reading
time and the other
dense, getting betteranthropologists distance their subjects
I seldom go out these days without a camera
never without my notepad.I stood on a chair overlooking the crowd
and it looked like
"big high school college dance footage"nothing distinguished off the chair, on the same level
I notice swarthmore freak motion distinctive when I took off my bag jacket and toolbelt,
I felt ecstatic engaged! there is a far smaller party downstairsI ran into fey jessicathrown by the LBGA lebian gay bisexual allied are all my hip friends
hiply swaying and exchanging talkmore cigarette smoke
less couples dancing fixity
less meat hunting
diffuse energy of individualsmore unique dressers funky ego dancers
I split my time between
doubtless dancingupstairs eighties greats techno dance compulsion
and the artistic elitewhy the choice?
white on white
seems excited by me these days
strange how you grow on people from a distance
I danced close to her and a she friendtoo high to be cool mostly thoughtful
high cuz
a friend encouraged me out
prefaced by a fresh green glass bong hitand some jimi hendrix like the old days
strong pot makes me think abstractly explain myself thorough concise
no one argues with me
mom would approve me getting high
tonight if only cuz I tend to stoned clean my room...and contemplate...
mariah is steadily borrowing my possessions creating a personal surrounding of my physical presence? absorbing my surface reality as her own to project? pisces? I brought a lighter when I go to party
curteous light provider now no longer I don't like smoke
not to write speeches like I did for the Rand
speak straight from self
I try to maintain a sane dietprotest reminations
cuz chatting with jilted julianot brooding over last night
but infatuated with a cute barrell makershe's "heard he's a committed bachelor" she asks him if he will share dating time with her
his obvious answerflat no. who wants to think about making a committment in the abstract?
express desire as tangible, doable or not doable. julia encourages me to eat phoenixes - regional eupamism for egg muffins (I add a hashbrown patty)
puts me to sleep!you need to eat them justin!
strength - you're eating ovaries!(she thinks I'm too thin, she calls me chicken butt.)
justin hall | <justin at bud dot com>